Dear Gracie

Dear Gracie,

I look at you with such joy. You are growing up so quick right before my eyes. I don't see it every day but when I snap photos of you or see you in your daddy's arm's I see you changing. It's so hard to believe that a week from now you will be four months old.

These four months have been hard on us both. I never knew I could love someone so much. I never knew being a mother would be do hard. I never knew I'd have so many emotions and laugh and cry so much. I feel like a completely different person. I don't think that's a bad thing at all just different. I know that I am a better soul because of you.

Seeing you grow makes me sad in some ways. Thanks for being patient with me and for walking with me through motherhood. We both had and have a lot to figure out. I wish I had known from the beginning you had a MilkProteins Intolerance. Things were so rough and I didn't know why you were the way you were and the Dr wouldn't listen. If I learned one thing it is that I need to follow my gut feelings more. Forgive me for not knowing sooner. You seem so much happier now and so much more at peace. I miss feeding you so much sweetheart but I want what is best for you. I am glad you still love to cuddle with me and I want to cry when you are eating a bottle looking at me the same as when you ate from me. When you reach your hand around my finger it is priceless like you are telling me that it's ok that we had to move onto the bottle and that together we'll be ok. I'm so proud of you for how you've transitioned. I worry about you always and only want the very best for you.

I'm sure we have many struggles ahead of us and we will over come those together. I am also sure that there are so many happy times we're going to share, This is just the beginning of a wonderful and exciting journey together chunk monk and I love you with every part of me.

Love Mommy