What A Week

Time is flying by and so much is happening. In ways I want Miss Gracie to be more independent but each day I watch her growing and I miss her as a baby. She's really growing. I just don't know where the last six months went. They tell you that when you have kids the time flys. I had no idea how true that would be.

Monday we had our six month appointment with the pediatrician. Gracie weighs almost sixteen pounds, some of her percentiles went down of course I feared that with the confirmed Milk Protein Allergy and switch from breastfeeding to formula feeding but The Dr said she was doing very well. She did much better this time with her shots. We spoke about starting solids and I just don't feel like he has as much experience with food allergies as I'd like. He never told me to avoid green beans or peas with the possible soy allergy as well I would of expected that. The Dr pretty much left what and when and how I start solids totally up to me. Anyone who knows me knows that I am a person of structure and plans and predictability. This whole solid information was not nearly what I wanted or needed. Now I am trying to research and plan on my own something I'd hoped the DR would provide for me. Frustration.

We're definitely back to sleep problems. Miss Gracie doesn't want to nap, they are very restless. Miss Gracie doesn't want to go to bed at night. Last night she was up till four AM and still managed her seven thirty wake up. She had a short nap, in bed with me but that was about it. She wouldn't go down this evening and finally at eleven she was out on a blanket on the living room floor. I carried her to bed and she's down for now. Who knows what the night will bring. More unpredictability I sometimes wonder if I am cut out for this but when my little lady melts my heart with her smile the doubts disappear.

Things have been tense lately at home. I think both my husband and I want to move more than anything but me being the planner and him being the spontaneous one it causes some conflict. We have much work to do to sell the house for what we need and bills to pay off. Hubs works 70 hours a week sometimes and has no time or energy to fix it up so we are kinda at a stale mate. I've been critical since I got comfortable caring for Miss Gracie of my hubby's care giving skills. I am really trying to work on that along with my patience. I've been trying to really show him how much I appreciate how he works so hard for us. I try to say it but I really try to do little things for him that will make his life easier. Above all I've tried to be more positive and reign my tongue in more. This is a huge challenge for me because I feel like for a while now I've been this huge ball of negativity.

Money is tight and everything keeps coming up. Just this week my digital camera broke and I feel it's a must have with Miss Gracie growing each day. I know God will provide for us if I allow it.

Something to brighten your day. The quality is not the best as it was taken with hubs cell phone but she is a cutie.